Lately I spend a lot of time pinching myself. It sure beats the alternative of turning around, ass to the wind and assuming the position. Be rest assured I can report that I’ve spent plenty of times assuming the proverbial position pleasurably and not so pleasurably respectively.
I will try and not spend too much time on the negative nor the past; but I will say the past does deserve its acknowledgement if for no other reason than to not repeat the same damn mistake again. I hate bending over for punishment or comeuppance. Of course, if we believe in the tenets of Karma, the minute we throw out a bad deed we can expect that little bit of darkness to come back bringing its stormy black clouds with it and rain on our parade. The upside to Karma is that if we throw out good deeds we might enjoy more parades in the sunshine with blue skies. Christianity also has its close code that says you reap what you sow, basically the same tenet.
There was a time in my life when I didn’t pay attention to any of it. I knew it was real, down deep, so it wasn’t that I didn’t “believe,” but honey I sure spent a lot of time looking the other way. Like I’ve said before, when ya fry chicken, baby ya can’t leave it one side for too long or it will burn and not only will that piece of chicken taste like burnt rubber but it will scald the grease and ruin the whole frying pan full.
I will also admit that for several years I spent too much time looking back and swimming the same rivers twice. Standing in one place and stirring the pot too much can make your dish too chewy. Sometimes you have to learn to turn the heat down, put a lid on, walk away and just trust your instincts and timing. The same applies in life. Sometimes you just have to deal with the fact you fucked up suck up any consequences and just let it lay where it is. Dwelling in the past too much can make you stale, bitter and brittle. If you swim in one place too long you give out go under and drown.
Back to the present, sometimes being happy does not just mean getting what we want or any sort of physical rewards; but I believe being happy is realizing and owning your mistakes as well as your good deeds and knowing you have a choice to live beyond your past and that the past is, well the PAST. It is behind you and hopefully more often than not when you assume the position it is for a pleasurably raucous joy ride!
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